Human Performance

I often times get frustrated with the uncertainties of life.  More importantly, I get frustrated when thinking about my life's purpose.  I try to discern where my life is supposed to lead based off of my passions---health, fitness, self-improvement, and helping others.  The lines between these passions are often blurred because they all are important.  They all are only pieces of a complete life.  They are only roles. 

We all play various roles in our lives. Often times we find ourselves out of balance because we exacerbate ourselves in only particular areas while others suffer.  We work long hours; therefore, we don't make time to go to the gym.  We throw ourselves into achieving a goal and we let personal relastionships suffer as a result.  We are always going-and-going like the Energizer bunny, and we don't make time for solidarity and serenity--time to for reflections and spiritual growth.  These are but a few examples. 

It is my belief that each area of your life is just as important as the next.  To be balanced is a concept that is discussed infrequently, but we set goals and resolutions for the areas of our lives we feel are lacking on an annual or some more frequent basis in search of something that we feel is out of our grasp. 

I too struggle with finding balance, but it is in my pursuit of balance that I hope to discover the ability---the blueprint---to help others do the same.  The ability to live this life completely, and fully without regret.  The confidence to know that when I reach the end of this journey, I would be content knowing that I became the person I was meant to be---that I lived out my purpose.

Change Clothes and Pose

I used to write for inspiration, but I think I'm going to go more for truth.  The tables of my life have turned drastically, and selflessnenss and understanding has caused an abundance of pain.  I've spent so much time asking myself, "what makes people....[insert here and use as many explatives as you want]?", or "why do I always.......[same as before, but probably a few more explatives]?"  I'm a person who always wants to be understanding because from my personal experiences, I would want people to do the same for me.  The road has definitely been bumpy.  But what I realize is that I can be understanding and still have a set standard.  You might say duh, but I'm serious.  When you live without a standard you'll take anything--and boy have I accepted some [bleep]!  Even now I wonder, "what the hell am I doing?"  But I'm not the victim, I'm a victor.  It is true when they say, "you teach people how to treat you."  Beyond all of the experiences good and bad, I'm on a quest to do something and be someone whom many would not believe.  A quest to make a change, but first that change must begin in me.  I used to be afraid to talk about my life, but that fear has paralyzed me in a place where I find myself often settling--in relationships, jobs, friendships, goals, objectives and life in general.  As many books as I've read, none of them have the answers.  The journey is a single one.  I'm on a road that only I was born on, on a journey to a place only I can go, trying to reach a destinations that many hope to attain.  The difference is, I'm no longer resting on hope, but action.  So it's time to teach a new lesson.  But first things first, I have to deal with the past, the whole past, I'll let you know how that works out. 

Until next time.